As the great and wise philosopher Natalie Imbruglia once said: Nothing´s fine, I´m torn,I´m all out of faith.This is how I feel, I´m cold and I am shamed lying naked on the floor.Illusion never changed into something real.Wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn. If that isn´t an accurate description of motherhood, I don´t know what is! OK, I´m rarely naked on the floor, because this is, after all, Sheffield, and it´s a bit nippy - but I´ve been down there sobbing in my dressing gown for sure. I´ve lost faith - in myself, in my ability to cope, in the system, in the Sleep Gods. I´ve had my pre-kid illusions shattered a billion...
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